Instead of looking for someone to lose ourselves in, why don’t we look for people we find ourselves in?
It’s hard to explain the feeling that I have right now. I am beyond happy, yet extremely sad all at the same time. I don’t know why. I went to a conference this weekend, and it was amazing. I was surrounded by people who were passionate about the same things as I. It was honestly the greatest weekend I’ve had in a very long time. I had a moment of pure happiness, that doesn’t happen often. The moment of happiness where it’s pure, and you are lost in the moment. You forget about the rest of the world and you live in the moment, and for a brief moment everything seems fine in the world. I came home from the conference, and as soon as I stepped foot out of the car, I was reminded that that was only a moment. It was back to reality. It was back to drama, rumors, work, stress, bullshit, and life. I don’t understand. I really don’t. Like is complicated. Life doesn’t work the way I want, or the way I expect. It just happens, and I react to the situations that are presented in front of me. Through these situations, I create the life I live. I’ve learned a few things from college.
- People will always disappoint you
- Trust a few, be friendly to all
- Perceptions of people will change
- Never judge a book by its cover
- Opportunity is hardwork
- You will not please everyone
- No matter how nice you are, people will find reasons to hate you
- You can change the world
- Things are possible
- Don’t care about the bullshit
- Care about your family, and friends
- Work hard, play hard
- Be the change you wish to see in the world
I have plenty more, but these are the ones that I have been thinking about today. I came to a standstill this semester. I became complacent with where I was. I let life become a habit. My days became a routine. I went crazy, and when I went crazy, the rock that I had wasn’t there anymore. I have also learned that I need to be my own rock. My anchor is in those I help. It’s a rebuilding process. I’m rebuilding the life I thought I figured out. If there is one thing I learned this semester, and always stay hungry. Never become complacent with where you are. There is always something more. There is more to do, there is more to see, there is more to experience, and there is more to figure out. There is always something more, and if you stop. If you become content, and stop pushing yourself, you are dead. They win, the people who are afraid of change win. They want you to be like everyone else. They don’t want you to change what they put in place. Change is hard. Changing the world is hard.
Growing up, there was always this feeling that I had. This feeling has never gone away, and I don’t know what it is. It’s a desire that I have never been able to achieve. I never knew what it was. I now know what it is. It took awhile for me to figure out. It’s a desire to change the world. It’s a desire to make a difference. It’s a desire to make a person see that they have the potential to change the world. Hopefully one day I will be able too.
Isn’t in funny that when you think you have everything figured out, life throws you a curve ball and brings you to your knees and keeps you there? That’s what I feel like. I thought I had life figured out, and these passes two months have been one curve ball after another. I don’t who I am anymore, and I don’t know what to do. I’m just taking it one day at a time, and hopefully I’ll figure something out.
I’m happy for you. I really am. You deserve the best, and you seem happy, and one day I hope I’ll be happy too.
I just want to let you know that I am not over you, and I don’t think I ever will be. I know your happy, and that’s all I want. You to be happy.
I was sitting on the bench outside, and right under the bench was one cheerio laying on the ground. Surrounding the cheerio were a bunch of ants. The ants live in a world of giants. Everything is bigger than them, even the cheerio. I put my foot closer to them, and they didn’t move. I dropped the butt of a cigarette near them. They didn’t move, or even flinch. It amazed me that in a world of giants they weren’t afraid. Then I thought about myself. I realized that I lived in a world of giants. Now, I don’t mean that in the sense that everything is bigger than me. By giants I mean that the problems we face seem to be giants. How are we supposed to defeat our giants? The ants were persistent with their cheerio. They weren’t afraid of the giants that surrounded them. They fought their giants to get that cheerio. The cheerio for us is our goals. Sometimes we face giants that get in the way of our cheerios. From the ants, I learned that we just need to be persistent. I also learned that sometimes our cheerios seem to big for us to get. One ant didn’t get the cheerio. A lot of ants got the cheerio. Sometimes, our goals are too big to get on our own. Sometimes our giants are too big to conquer on our own. It’s okay to ask for help, it’s okay to get our fellow ants to help us. We need to start to look at the bigger picture. We can’t do everything on our own. We need help, and we need to help. We can learn a lot from ants. I know I did.
We don’t dream anymore. Scratch that. We don’t dream like we used to. I’m going to be blunt here. Our dreams have gotten held us back, and honestly, we are stuck. Let us take all of the 1900’s. We started off on horse and buggies, now we have airplanes, and space shuttles. In less than 100 years, we went from horse and buggy to going to the moon. That is absolutely amazing. Our dreams led us to space. Our dreams led us to the moon. In 100 years we went from having no electricity, to having laptop computers. We made our dreams a reality. Our dreams had meaning. We don’t dream like that anymore. We are at a standstill in human history. All our focus is on war, and who can make the better weapon. Remember when our dreams benefited mankind? The dreams of people in the 1900’s created vaccines, created the internet, created the space station, created all kinds of things that helped better man. What are our dreams now? Bettering the Iphone? What happened to dreaming of going to space? To finding a cure for HIV? What happened to dreaming of peace? What happened to the dreams of saving the planet? As a human race we are stuck. Our dreams don’t mean anything anymore. People dream of being a reality tv star, or an actor, or something so small. What happened to the dreams of the future? We live in an age where if things are too tough we quit. Dreams were not meant to be easy. Do you think it was easy to get to space? Do you think it was easy to create the first car? Do you think it was easy to create electricity, or even a computer? Those were hard things to dream of, to make a reality. We don’t dream of anything original anymore. Every movie that has come out has been a remake, or a sequel. Everyone is obsessed with creating the next big app, or the next super computer. Why does no one dream of being the next man on the moon? Or being the first man on mars? Why does no one dream of changing the world anymore? Why does no one dream of rewriting the history books anymore? Why does no one dream anymore?